Hope’s birthing

 

 

 

 

 

 

Her chances of success were never great from the start,

what with odds so stacked against her.

Reality’s weighty, sullen face stared at her,

gloating from it’s place in the darkened corners of her life,

the places where she feels so often drawn.

Yet, as alluring as her darkness had become,

she turns the other way, holding a shaking hand above her brow,

shielding her eyes from this unaccustomed glare.

It was the prism of peace, cracked open and bleeding its light,

chasing rats of fear, demons of doubt, beasts of uncertainty, veils of perception

back to their primordial Gehenna, place of shadow and falsity.

Through this forgotten looking glass, one solitary face revealed itself,

one both frightening and aloof, yet gentle and welcoming.

This light was not safe.

It burned a little. It’s brightness hurt her eyes and

drove all other retinal things to the peripheries of her inner room.

She, like Saul, shared the Damascus Road which planted itself squarely before her.

Blindness had given her sight.

Darkness had gifted her with light.

Woundedness had blessed her with might.

And in one blinding second,

faith gave birth to hope.

Perseverance

With head bent, her stoic shoulders push into winds of chance and time,

fending against all comers.

Hope, even stolen from its place, dares not shake this one.

For though she bruised and battered be,

broken never shall she be.

Beat her head against rock, tree, pain or fall;

it serves only to fan the flame of inner resolve.

When all others have left chained, flayed or shamed,

yet she shall stand, and in brazen truth

remain.

Silent cries

Postulant gleanings, smugly smother;

themselves, recused of all but shame,

and, grinning, welcoming all others

to lust and pander to the same.

*****

Their shriveled hands with guilty prints

have satisfied their share of grasping

little ones so frightened, whence

they licks their lips, while one’s left gasping.

*****

Forced to lie and to pretend

that all is well in home and pew,

but soap can ne’er these stains amend

nor memories of hope renew.

*****

Cry out to he whose son was pricked

by lords and teachers of the cloth,

his first-fruits life no parlor trick

his vassals, now are we, betrothed.

*****

When turns the tide and justice breathes

its wind of life and sanctity,

these little ones so bruised, relieved

shall live, their due reward, to see.

Long distance friends

 

 

 

 

 

In tiny wisps of veil’d smoke

diffused the light through which I see.

Therein live the treasured folk

of cherished friendship’s filigree.

To enter now is to escape

all notice of redacted scenes

of lithely gotten vineyard grape

all subtle, sparkling red of sheen.

‘Tis later now than when begun

this sauntering down a mem’ry lane

to yet retain my passag’d ones

returned and fullnesses retained.

 

 

We are now

You cried in the car all night.

A pack of smokes and half a tank of gas to work out your anger, fear, self-hatred.

His boyhood dreams of greatness lay shattered on some far away board room table

surrounded by those whose job it is to look him in the eye and

with a single handshake, win through his loss.

None of them had ever met your kids.

Gone, now, the days of dinner party gossip arrayed in haute couture fineries.

“Who the hell really needs a horse after all?” you tell yourself,

rehearsing how you’ll tell your daughter.

Your fair-weather tennis club friends were the first to get awkward

and now spoke in corners in hushed tones

and side glances over Pinot Noir and single-malt.

You had never been the country club type and never did fit in that well.

That truth now serves you well

and eases your humiliation just enough to look right at them,

even through the tears you swore you wouldn’t allow.

“Fuck ’em all” you say, but inwardly long to be seen as they are.

Tall and suave and self-reliant like they are.

White and shiny, confident and perfect, gliding handily from place to place,

these cigar night botox babes whose welcome made you feel bigger somehow but yet…

strange, like a penguin among peacocks.

“To hell with it” you cry, “it doesn’t matter now anyway.”

Even the paper boy rides past your house in disdainful laughter.

Oh, dear God, those bad men,

men with muscles and sad agenda in sweaty shirts with unwanted insignia

roll out long memories and associations of bad choices and big living.

And as the last larger-than-life dream is rolled onto the truck

a ray of light pierces you, penetrating long forgotten places.

You turn and look.

His tears match yours but for different reasons.

His shame matches your grief and you reach a trembling hand,

tracing the outline of his haggard face.

Your eyes meet four, tear-filled eyes set in anguished faces of your children and realize,

that was then.

We are now.

Love’s dividend

On the evening of President Obama’s second term in office, regardless of anyone’s political proclivities, I pause to reflect on the one great fact that subsumes all others: Christ our Lord it is who ultimately leads us and strengthens our arms to love and serve.

The ink is dry, the eyes are wet,

the table’s turned, the cast is set.

One plan dies, another one lives,

not without pain but it, wisdom, gives.

We aim’d to lead and change the world,

through every challenge fear we hurled.

Every obstacle, dark and drear

must meet with faith, not wanton fear.

The coldest wage still paid in time

are those whose hatred’s willful crime

purports to guide but kills instead

the heart of our compassion, dead.

But though with every fiber’d will

we put to rest our need to kill,

there yet remains love’s dividend

of Christ, the Lord, our journey’s end.

 

 

White people party

Let’s have some Greek escargot, garnished well with lobster tips.

we ordered kosher pizza though it’s never touched my lips.

Let’s have a garden party once I text the dog a bone,

then all of us retire to the balcony, alone.

The stereo is oozing out some sad John Mayer tunes,

a few Adele, Dave Matthews and Death Cab for Cutie, too.

We’re swingin’ in Hilfiger, Abercrombie, Fitch and Gap,

the men drink single malt and chase it down with room temp Schnapps.

The gals pretend to talk about the things that matter most,

but mostly compare boobs, and think they’re better than the host.

We spent the afternoon at Starbucks just so we’d be seen,

my forty something ass looks tight in these designer jeans.

The holiday in Aspen skiing down those magic hills,

we stayed in Porsche’s timeshare and took weight reduction pills.

My faith has wavered some in my investments this past year,

for all those lazy bastards without jobs I’ll shed no tears.

And now one last Shiraz will go down sweetly on my lips,

those seven Dos Equis have left me sorely needing sips.

When next you ask about me I will need to ask of you,

to use the servant’s entrance and to please take off your shoes.

kite

Does a kite make sense when all it wants to do is leave?

So let it go.

If up it goes, down it must sometime come,

and when it does, it will have seen much sky.

Song of November

 

 

 

 

 

 

Teased by leaves of impossible hue,

November coaxes her song, late in coming

but pure in its lyric of white death.

She sings, crouched in waiting on hollow, haunted haunches

squeezing out what remains of flourishing days.

Confidently, she trades them for the unknown future

where day and night swap places.

Grey becomes the new day,

greyer still the night that swallows up

scented Summer’s boasting, silken Fall’s lust for Spring.

Stop, she says.

Stop to hear this song about nothing,

these words that have sewn up sown seeds,

entombing with wordless serenade the last vestiges of living

and, instead, insistently hums her song,

her late and last and lingering notes;

notes only overshadowed by the noisy whines

of Spring’s new calling.

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Thorn-ed bliss

His was to be a road of warn and worn,

saddled in piecemeal fragility, poised upon the brink of his otherworldly heart.

No rings of Saturn to juxtapose here with there, horizon with fingertips.

No multiple moons taking turns rising and falling in the sight-line of his dreams.

No dusty, chemical-winds racing to pour themselves in heaps of derivative normalcy.

Beyond the vale of his thoughts, in pools of reflective light, came time

time…

time…its slow ache, d  r  a  w  n out, s  t  r  e  t  c  h  i  n  g then from now from when.

Along the borderlands of his discontent there lived others,

other souls of perishable flesh, volatile spirits, meandering hearts

who linger around burning garbage cans hoping to catch but a glimpse,

a passing glance of someone whose hands are still warm

whose life still contains the fragrance of love,

whose passions remain undulled by restraint and the ticking clock of desperation.

Then, as night falls from day falls from night,

a single drop of blood trickles down his shredded cheek.

His was a life renewed, born again in the tattered oneness of a cracked, brittle rosebush.

He had found a place of belonging among them in thorn-ed bliss.