That damn note

Your neck is already craned as far as it can go,

your head pushed forward.

Even your eyebrows reach for it,

but it still doesn’t catch that damn note.

Forget it.

It’s gone.

Reading poetry

How strange, these words, so still and pale, lined up so straight

like lexical dancers intent on a single thing:

to bounce their lettered beauty into the naked world.

Lines, vigorous or drowsy or ambiguous poke and prod and woo some response.

Delight or Joy?

Curiosity or Fear?

Anger or Pity?

The words trip and whirl, spit and spew, thrust and weave

engrossing the reader in the perfect, nuanced phrase –

that opens the door.

We wait…

Amid a veritable horde of other materials available for us to share in Advent together, I submit another poem/prayer. May the angst, ambivalence, austerity and frustration of waiting be rewarded in our common longing for the coming Light.

Too many moons after too many suns and still,

we wait.

To arise to yet another day with no sight of promises end,

we wait.

My great, great, great, many more great grandparents told this same tale,

we wait.

My great, great, great grandchildren…will they tell this same tale?

We wait.

Once pliable, elastic and hope-filled words, spoken from that creepy prophet guy in my history textbook,

we wait.

In hopscotch rhymes, coffee table books and riddles for the Sunday newspaper,

we wait.

Faithless ones mock, faithful ones pretend to believe, seeking ones struggle to hope,

we wait.

Stuck in one solitary spot, floating in an endless ocean of shark infested water,

we wait.

Nine year old boys sneak their umpteenth grab of dinner being prepared a year after lunch,

we wait.

We’ve long ago forgotten or even care about what we were waiting for,

we wait.

Will we even know

when the waiting is over?

Still,

we wait…

The sweet androgyny of death

I love cemeteries. They are not sad places for me. To the contrary, they remind me that those brave souls whose lives already possess both numbers, the prefix and suffix of the dash on lives well-lived, tell now a bigger story. I am strangely comforted that their passing has in some small way prepared me for mine. I am at peace in such places.

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Crunching beneath my feet these leaves, left forgotten to rot and blow and weep,

gather in huddled piles, victims of their own deep fall from heights above to this forgotten place.

Their one-time glory now lies like hazy remembrances flattened and pressed into the soles of strangers’ boots.

Sometimes, when dry enough, they leave this parallel prison to drift and swirl and dance among these stones

that stand so still like soldiers, their only medals the printing on their chest

of this one or that one, the dash between numbers the only hint of where once they dwelt.

The sun’s cool brightness mocks the quiet of this place of silenced voices –

men too weak to risk, women too weak to love, children robbed of both.

Still, something about this grey, ponderous place, draped in Fall’s finest filigree

urges me on in this sweet reconnaissance, this date with mystery, undying.

And, while still standing on the shoulders of those who have spoken these same things,

the specter of risen spirits breaks ranks with the melancholy oaks and sings out a new song,

not of memory washed and sanitized, protected against itself,

but embraced in the sweet androgyny of death.

You may find the beautiful photo here.

The Moorland Fairies

The folklore of the Scottish highland moors is extensive and, frankly, creepy as hell. This is a poem that narrates some of that creepiness. Enjoy…or whatever one does with this kind of poetry!

 Moorland Fairies

From marsh and hill through woodland, still,

arose the lithe-limb’d people.

Their frozen stare could nearly kill

e’en those under God’s steeple.

* * *

For many years they haunted men

and frightened little children.

They came at night from eerie dens

to poison, scare or steal them.

* * *

Hunted down with bow and gun

till all were tired and hopeless,

till one cold day, they came upon

a creature in death’s caress.

* * *

So pale and wan, it lay atop

a thicket, robed in grasses;

it’s bluish skin, stout hearts could stop

black eyes, like coal-molasses.

* * *

The men bent down to prod and stare,

its spindly shanks to gander.

The pall of death was everywhere,

with rancorous reminder.

* * *

But just as close to it they came

two deathly eyes did open

and breath reentered lifeless frame

for resurrection groping.

* * *

It lashed on them such furious might

and wicked rage, so cruel;

with hidden teeth, so sharp, a sight

that fed their fear much fuel.

* * *

With deadly speed and deft of limb

it pounced upon them swiftly;

it tore and scratched, ne’er piteous whim,

dispatching them quite briskly.

* * *

No sign was left of men nor lad

who sought to save their village.

All who remained, with fear gone mad,

with frozen hearts lay pillaged.

* * *

E’er since that day, those men of yore

we toast, their tales a’ telling,

who sought their courage to restore,

those impish devils, quelling.

* * *

And when this tale of death is told

young boys, their fathers, query,

“who were those monsters, grey and old?”

“They were the Moorland fairies.”

Photo courtesy of Honolulu Daily Photos

Surprised by Healing

From time to time I am given the honor of guest blogger. This month I shared a piece with Conversations Journal on the crucial topic of healing and wholeness. It looks back to my accident of two and a half years ago with fresh eyes. I hope it is meaningful, especially to other skeptics.

http://conversationsjournal.com/2012/11/surprised-by-healing/

A gift of grey

Satisfied, full, these sated skies

their grey so whimsical and warm

e’en though with ardor the wind tries

my sallow soul it’s hearth to storm.

* * *

Generous in her briskly breath

an offering of still-born doubt,

reminds me of what is not death

and with strong grace my sadness routs.

* * *

Till now she’s spurned all but love

her bosom warm in shattered sleep,

to wash my brow with rain, above,

and echoes through the cleansing deep.

* * *

And in these moments, damp and dear,

are pressed upon my spirit, warm,

an invitation to mystic, clear,

full brightness of her grey breast, charms.

Photo courtesy of 214wainwrights.wordpress.com

For prayers of thanks, we give thanks

Gracious God, giver of all good things,

for arising this day to draw breath, we give thanks.

For enough mental acuity to express gratitude, we give thanks.

For the sunrise’s early resplendent shout of morning, we give thanks.

For the passage of time, from then to now to then, we give thanks.

For a body capable of that which we consider essential, we give thanks.

For the car heater slowly blasting frost from the windshield, we give thanks.

For the car, a heater and a windshield, we give thanks.

For the long, protective arms of God, the windshield of our lives, we give thanks.

For the choice to wear clothing not made by little Filipino girls chained to a desk, we give thanks.

For the sight required to read what we write, we give thanks.

For the ability to read what we see, we give thanks.

For an education that teaches us both, we give thanks.

For access to readable materials from a host of perspectives, we give thanks.

For the eccentric, aging gentleman seated across from me, we give thanks.

For his freedom to wear a skirt and knee-high boots without fear of imprisonment, torture or death, we give thanks.

For the olfactory senses that bless our nostrils with the smell of our coffee, we give thanks.

For the ready availability of coffee and other non-essential niceties, we give thanks.

For those who work more hours than we can imagine to procure said niceties, we give thanks.

For those who wage spiritual warfare against the forces of hate and injustice, we give thanks.

For the choice to do the same, we give thanks.

For your sovereignty over both, we give thanks.

For your inexplicable love for those who wage war and injustice, we give thanks.

For your expectation of our similar love, we give thanks.

For your willingness to get us there, we give thanks.

For the attitude necessary to give thanks, we give thanks.

On this day

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

On this day when thoughts of good and well and right

infuse themselves in stomachs bursting full,

one needs pause to see the irrelevance of might

and from our best, our bright, our love, to cull

all memory, satiated with fear of less

and stop to ponder on this day

what better ways we might glean to redress

the empty mouths and lives of those without say.

For this once year time we’re given time

for smiles of loved ones, lives of laughter’d ranks.

Then through the eyes of gratitude we’ll climb

to rest in God’s full bosom, hearts ripe with thanks.

Frontiers

 

 

 

 

 

 

Here on the frontiers of our own natures we sit

alone together, holding in our hands the soul

of neighbor and friend,

brother and enemy,

known and unknown,

loved and feared,

all entwined in the richness of this holy chaos.

Heaven’s preference versus our indifference –

the total and real versus the glib and passé.

If we, like cosmic virgins, inhabit only ourselves,

the protective cocoons

of dismissive distance and convenient forgetfulness,

then nothing can penetrate, to explore our inwardness

and we are left alone –

white, pristine, untouched, without blemish;

but lacking those sweet flaws that, untouched,

leaves empty our canvas, which longs to bleed color

but drinks instead only the pretense of our perfection.

Jump from ledge or cliff

if only to feel the ineffable lightness of flying

too low to the ground.

For, though we fall alone,

we shall land

together.

Thanks to experiencing physical reality for the photo.