A Longing Still Being Fulfilled

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It has been two and a half years since starting this blog. In that time, life has fashioned me just like it has you. I’m in the throes of developing a brand new website. I’ll keep you posted on that. Until then, I give you my very first blog post from this site that still rings true for me today. Please feel free to share with me your own thoughts, longings either fulfilled or not, hopes, dreams, frustrations…the works. Let’s do this life thing together.

Still in one peace…R

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A thirsty now

Rockwell-sunset

What dark, forbidden thoughts

lie hidden, cringing in corners

left purposely unexplored, where only

the unbidden foes and uninvited guests

can plant their flags of remorse.

Pull back the shades but for a moment

and the nighttime pupils tear open

gasping again for shadows, but alive

once more to the potential of life-giving light.

What chaste and tender memories

are held at the bottoms of jam jars,

pie trays, rabbit cages and junk drawers.

Here, where time and dust allow

the mind to shade and dim what once

was bright, certain, immediate,

the mind can do its best work

of cinching a forever then

to a thirsty now.

The Old Rugged Cross: Rene Girard and the Resurrection of Substitutionary Atonement

I tend not to post theological pieces to my blog for a number of reasons. First, I’m an armchair theologian at best, preferring the wilder, more untamed waters of Christian spirituality. Second, I love to talk theology but tend not to enjoy the often carte blanche blanket statements in comments lines that indicate that someone truly believes they’ve got this one figured out. It cheapens theology in general and proves my point that all true theology is ultimately a lived theology. However, I’ve undergone sweeping theological and even philosophical changes in the past 30 years of my Christian journey that sometimes ask for clarification.

A favorite blog of mine: The Theological Wanderings of a Street Pastor which features the excellent writing of J. Barrett Lee, hosted the following expose of substitutionary atonement theory. This is just one of many ways I’ve been changing. Without more of my blah, blah, I instead give you his much deeper insights…

J. Barrett Lee's avatarHopping Hadrian's Wall

 

Friends and commentators from all over the theological spectrum have mentioned that I don’t seem to have given susbstitutionary atonement theory its due in my post from earlier this week, The Wrath of God and the Presbyterian Hymnal.

In that post, I leaned heavily on presenting substitutionary atonement as “cosmic child abuse” (an excellent turn of phrase I’m borrowing from Sarah Sanderson-Doughty).  I wrote:

…penal substitution sets up a scenario where Jesus saves humanity from the rage (not the wrath) of an out-of-control, abusive parent.  When all is said and done, the church gathers around a crucifix and hears, “This is your fault.  Look at what you made God do.  You are so bad and dirty that God had to torture and kill this beautiful, innocent person so that he wouldn’t do the same thing to you.  Therefore, you’d better shape up and be thankful or else God…

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17 Minutes of Blasphemy

This guest poem is by English teacher and good friend, Terry Cooper. We share life, art, worship, families and fellowship together and it is an honor knowing him. I hope this touches you as it did me.

17 Minutes of Blasphemy                                                                                                 

July 15, 2008

 

This morning I am the center of the universe.

I sit in a wicker chair

In the center of the front patio

Which is at the 50 yard line of our front yard.

The sun is rising to the right, and if I

Stay, will set on my left.

All the windows of the house behind me are shuttered—Blinds pulled

Closed like heavy eyelids. It’s just me out here.

A sprinkler, some aspen, birch,

A few maples (after all we are not that far from Canada),

An old white mare in a pasture across the lane,

And the sky.

Today it’s a sampler:  there are the cliché white puffs that make paintings and children’s books, wallpaper, and some clever ceilings;  there are the long feathers of some bird I’d rather not see; there are streaks, heavy celestial cobwebs; there are tiny white check marks that become more populous until they become a flock of birds who become some dinosaur spine; for contrast, there are dark gray puffs, some of which tumble in front of the sun—minions to his glory; a new trick to the north—the dark clouds combined with the blue  backdrop have created shadows of the sun’s rays making the inexorable, arrogant razor lines that emanate, dark, as if, in that part of the sky, the identical twins–light and dark–had agreed to switch places; and, now, directly in front of me, a series of streaks emanate as if the sky were a pond and someone dropped a stone up into it, and instead of circular ripples, some feathery-hair-like lines mark the equal and opposite reaction dead center in my line of vision.  I can tell that God is ready to take back His throne.  I wasn’t very good at it anyway.  I didn’t answer any prayers, send any plagues, or rescue anyone from a life of sin,

But for a few minutes, I came close

If only by inches

To feeling complete, justified, centered.

A short evening prayer

Bring forth the night

that, in its wake, I too may wake

to morning light

and blessings, new.

A night with friends

The evening, purple and plush, is tender.

Her breezy suggestions of tales, told late

well, often, and loudly from tables

laden with good friends. The fingerprinted

beer glasses fill with memories, plump with

well worded love, seed the new day

and push just a little harder toward joy.

Glasses emptied, giggles abounding

posture themselves as little brother

to guffawed grins on quivering chins,

twin bearers of gladness and gloom.

For soon the night must absolve

the room of her secrets, and

invite the neighbored goodness back

to places now refreshed in

the exercise of lingering laughter

late and perfectly balanced,

found only among the best of friends.

Of life, love and bagpipes – continued

I reblog part 2 of “of life, love and bagpipes.” Snort, guffaw, chuckle…do what you have to do.

robertalanrife's avatarRob's Lit-Bits

At a Highland Games sometime last summer I was piping for the Highland Dancing portion and wrote some reflections. This is the continuation of that story…

I jump ahead forty years in order to share one of many piping stories accumulated over those years. Since the age of fourteen I have played bagpipes as accompaniment for highland dancing. Typically, a piper or pipers are hired to perform this task, doing so throughout the day trading off dances for breaks from the delightful tedium. Yesterday was one such day.

One walks onto a damp field, humming with the possibilities of the day, newly arrived but yet in infancy. The sun, undecided as to its welcome, insists on playing peek-a-boo through gently swaying trees overhead. The heady, morning air gradually yields to the all too familiar squawks of bagpipers keen to tame the beast before their competition debut two hours hence. Ahead…

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Found in lost time

frayed edges

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

The periphery is the place

where dreams are most visible.

On the edges, frayed and wrinkled,

my subdivided realities

open wide and spread out

before inquisitors pressed in close

with noses against the dirty glass

of my best kept secrets.

Let’s confirm that hope

spy that joy,

pin down that lie,

open that pain.

If one can make hiccups

in time and place, perhaps

there can be rejoined

the fragile messes,

the intractable chaos,

the static imperfections

with the faux pardon of time.

Drive the head of this nail

of perceptions through

already connected wood

with the hammer of bad choices.

What’s left is just one more nail.

Still, my need for love,

unprovoked and misunderstood,

is best found in lost time.

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Of life, love and bagpipes

I’ve spent much of the summer, as is often the case, playing bagpipes for one highland games after another (apparently games are best played at altitude). I’d like to repost a couple pieces written a couple years ago to celebrate this personal delight. Come, join the parade. Bring earplugs.

robertalanrife's avatarRob's Lit-Bits

I am a Highland Bagpipe player or piper in street talk. It is an instrument with which I have had a love-hate relationship for almost forty years now. For the longest time I wondered what might have gone through my parents’ minds when, at eight years of age, I loudly proclaimed my overweening desire to begin lessons immediately. That is, until I mused lately on the fact that both of my sons are rock drummers. I’m sure that bears at least some resemblance.

Perhaps not.

The Great Highland Bagpipe (GHB) as it is called by the musicology muck-a-mucks is an instrument uniquely designed to be heard. A perfect wake-the-dead alarm, they have been used for centuries to alert clans of forthcoming gatherings, oncoming battles and soon coming dignitaries. A piper on a hill is not just a cliché or quaint tourist post card. It does in fact typify much of…

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A journal entry: Friday, July 19th, 2013

place for meditation

These words flow from a pen both weak and hungry. They dump onto paper in an effort to unload excess flotsam from my soul. My pen is also hungry for words other than those that seem only to spill out in self-expression, self-deprecation, self-indictment, self-actualization, self, self, self…blah! There’s so much me that there is precious little room left for anyone else. At times like these I’m left to ponder whether I’d even recognize the harmonious, lilting song of God above the shrill, cacophonous din of my own voice trumpeting its need of something or other.

Instead, let me bring the pen of a ready writer, a writer, ready and poised to praise the One whose words I seek. The Logos – the Ultimate Word – forms the inspiration for my little words. Maybe as I write my words in praise of the Word, my story will begin to take on the shape of the Great Narrator. Let your wise and beautiful words, O Logos, letter my life with beauty, honesty and truth.

The Beginning.